my obsessions

2008-06-17T04:34:00.000-07:00

This is a new beginning.

http://sekretprojektmiao.blogspot.com

2008-06-05T09:31:00.000-07:00

I AM GOING NUTS I AM GOING NUTS I AM GOING NUTS I AM GOING NUTS I AM GOING NUTS

):

NUTS. NUTS. NUTS. NUTS. NUTS. NUTS. NUTS.

PLEASE GIVE ME THE ANSWER I AM DYING TO HEAR PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

I BEG YOU.

2008-05-05T09:20:00.000-07:00

You both are driving me crazy
What do I have to do to make this stop?!
Seriously, WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO TO MAKE THIS STOP?!

My dad refuses to come home cause he's afraid my mom will kill him when he sleeps.
My mom threatens a divorce if my dad doesn't return.
I'm the shield the middleperson whatever.
Use me to make my dad stay.
Scold me for being the one my dad contacts.
FUCKING PLEASE STOP QUARRELLING!
I'm so tired...I really am.
Why do both parents always drag me into it?!
IM SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THIS FUCKING DRAMA!
ITS HONESTLY KILLING ME!!!

Tell me, what has my family come to?
Broken pieces...

2008-04-01T06:30:00.001-07:00

you chose not to fight for your happiness
you chose religion over love
these only tell me you are not worth it
so why pretend you still care

Have you read Teenage Lolita?
It's like reading a long erotic novel.
Haha and it's really fascinating, because and just because the blogger is a young Singaporean girl.
Let's just say I'm amazed by how wide the world is, and how little I only know.
It's like reading SPG's blog last time.
Same nationality, just WAY WAY WAY different lives.
Anyway I promise everyone I'll snap out of this emo babagaga/unstable mental state as soon as I can. Just bear with me, give me some time.
So yes, love to all!

2008-03-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

live for the moment VS think for the future
i made my choice
but it wasn't yours

I can't find my bloody Sony camera USB cable!
Anyone who thinks they've got the same cable, will you please loan it to me? PLEASE? :D I'd be really grateful.
Mm I can't wear my White dress anymore, because the vest that i matched it with has to be returned to its original owner. Need to figure how to wear it other ways.
Anyhow, I've been reading a Astroscope book of my star sign Cancer!
Well, it's actually rather accurate, not entirely, but still...
Think I'm going to clear my room tomorrow. It's very filthy and I'm blabbering like a lunatic.
and yes i lead a horribly mundane life. and you can tell i'm terribly bored. and that's why i'm blogging.
So anyone, please date me out.
Goodbye.

2008-03-30T09:25:00.000-07:00

girls say what they don't mean
boys don't mean what they say
after multiple hints dropped,
i give up.

Stand up, my dear.
You can do better than this.

Miao wants a nose piercing, a star tattoo and she wants to speak Spanish.

2008-03-25T08:58:00.000-07:00

I so want to call you
So want to talk to you
Can't type no more...
No more puppy eyed boy for me

note to self: Never to date a christian ever again, unless he and his family are of the liberal kind.

2008-03-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

Bedroom monsters won't let me sleep.
I go crazy tick tock tick.
I'm out of my mind, way out of my mind.

I think you're doing fine, just fine without me.
No choice for what I did.
Trying not to regret.
But lifeless creatures keep creeping up on me.

Bye Bye Baby K.

2008-02-20T07:12:00.000-08:00

just received a call from an old tuition mate
aye, Uncle Dass has passed away this afternoon.

how do you react when somebody calls to tell you a family friend has gone?
a family friend that we were once close to.
because of silly money disputes.
FUCK MONEY PROBLEMS, they really ruin relationships.
not the first one in all my 18 years of life
i'm slightly overwhelmed by sorrow now.
just reminiscing the old times
my childhood(the happy parts) was much spent there
so what do you say, when you know he's not around anymore...

2008-02-13T07:01:00.000-08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Seriously, my mom is getting MORE and MORE hateful by the second/minute/hour/day
>: (
I mean honestly, aye.
No point explaining, nobody will understand.
Well unless you have an overbearing mom just like me.
Or you are me.
Pray not.
FUCKING ANNOYING STOP PISSING ME OFF YOU ARE REALLY MAKING ME HATE YOU MORE AND MORE!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhh

2008-02-12T22:57:00.001-08:00

those were the days

Hello, I am only blogging because I want to tell the whole world (the part that actually reads what i write) that I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE FIRST BATCH OF SHIPMENT TO COME IN!!!

I am so damn psyched!

Oh and because I am currently unemployed,
the activity that I have been actively doing, is online window shopping at blogshops.

Oh and I regret buying the dress. Maybe i should try and sell it to somebody.

I don't usually say this, but i think I'm increasingly becoming a shopaholic.
Whoops.

2008-02-07T06:17:00.000-08:00

Bye Bye Baby.

This start of the rat year has been quite miserable for me. With no good mood to begin with, nothing else interests me. But it's okay, i'll pick myself up and start all over again. I'll learn to be independent again. How i wished Fawq was here...

Unfortunately, the US-ordered stuff won't be able to completely arrive together! Have to pay additional delivery charges because of the box won't fit all of them. Ohwell.

2008-02-02T22:15:00.001-08:00

and this marks the end of my first production job stint

halloa people!
I AM PYSCHED!
I have officially made 2 different online purchases!
1 local, 1 international!
so in all, i would have spent...
TWO HUNDRED AND THIRTY FIVE DOLLARS!
on shopping itself
so i guess tht's my chinese new year shopping and probably year 2008 shopping
but i'm still unsatisfied!
i still want to walk around singapore to shop :/
ohwell

anyway i've been bumming around/attempting to springclean my room
and yes thats about it.
just too lazy to get out of the house.

2008-01-13T06:46:00.001-08:00

The Lady & The Man, My Loveable Colleagues Who Make My Internship Much More Enjoyable. (:

Not to forget, mentioning the others who left. Munesh & Wan Ping. Those that are still there, Liish Candice & Everyone else.

A Little Bit Of Cam Whoring At Charmed Collections With Alicia.
Fawq Steamboat/Sleepover On February 3rd!

Okay so i've more or less settled for Communication Studies in NTU. Really hope my GP grade will be good. Honestly. I can do electives in ADM or Literature too.

Job stint will be coming to an end soon. No plans yet for post-work. Borrowed many dvds from liish & doreen! Pysched to start on them! SO MANY!!!
okay i have completely no idea why am i typing in such a broken way.

PS: I still need a life?

2008-01-07T08:10:00.001-08:00

so friday was Back To St Nicholas Girls for The Orange Bowl with Wei Lin & Louisa : DDD
Then TCC & BK Eating House Fishball Noodles with kennyboy (:
TCC was cosy and nice, I like.
Saturday was work in the day, and a very early lucky wrap so i could go for Inter JC Prom Pageant! :D
Anyhow, it wasn't all that exciting and fun but it was nice going with Wei Lin hahaha like yah i enjoyed it. albeit feeling slightly out of place. and meeting familiar faces, although a certain one do not recognise me anymore.

I NEED A LIFE,like SERIOUSLY.
ohwell...

2008-01-03T05:02:00.000-08:00

end of year 2007 was mainly Christmas with durians and seafood and intensive camwhoring with bandits

aye, i need a life, i need to socialise. sometimes i feel that i grow up too fast&furious for my own good sake.

anyhow, loving the short hair!
I WANT TO BE A SINEMANIAC! :D

2007-11-30T08:09:00.000-08:00

Hello, It's The Post As.
But I'm Still Busy, Or Maybe Even Busier.

Anyhow, I want to catch some movies!
Movies like 2 days in Paris, The Tattoist, Golden Compass...
I am a movie lover.
But the movie lover's lover, IS OUT OF TOWN!

I cannot wait for Kenneth Thng Chong Li to land in Singapore!
Bottomline is: I MISS KENNYBOY!!!

Okay, bye people.
Much Love.
SPREAD THE LOVE YO!

2007-09-14T10:46:00.000-07:00

sparse words of comfort only brings heartache

School has been much of a drag & it's only the first week.
Dreadful term IV.

So post-prelims fun just went by, not exactly eventful but still enjoyable. With board games @ Mind Cafe, Thai Express, Arcade Fun & Subway to signal the start of it.
I'm sorry if i was too domineering in BishiBashi, haha, just got too caught up & yes my ah LianxZx side revelation.
Sept Holidays had Mambo with AA4 girls & etc. Beat! with kennyboy. Kenny staying over for overnight study, but only ended up playing Sims2 the entire time or dozing off at many times of the day. Pretty much that's it.

And the bright-eyed choked on ambition.

2007-08-02T07:51:00.001-07:00

you were so one of a kind

This disappearance,
I don't know.
Laughing and smiling,
Next realising you weren't worried for her,
Just for that moment.
Then the guilt sets in,
Why aren't you worried sick for that moment?
Why does life continues on as normal?
Why don't you know where she is?
Why, are you so useless?
It's been tough to read about a friend on the papers.
It's harsh knowing that you're not found yet.
All i can say is, Just hang in there Fel.
No matter what.
You've got to, for each & everyone of us.
<3 fel loves fel.

2007-07-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

narcissism at its best

findfelicia.blogspot.com

i love you fel, it's time to come home
):

2007-07-16T08:06:00.000-07:00

and wait for my conscience to break

monday today
met clarissachin at potong pasir for nat&i's rapture tickets
just stood there talking to her for like an hour
& i suddenly realised how much i missed her ):
ayee and i realised how sad my jc life is
clar has such a happening class haha
i miss snsb...
i'm so stoked to be finally catching nat on rapture day! (:

anyway kennyboy, cheer up chin up!
prove to your coach & everybody else (:
i believe you can do it.
<3

2007-07-15T08:48:00.000-07:00

give me the beat boys
and free my soul
i wanna get lost in your rock n roll
and drift away

friday was exhausting as usual
friday night was with kennyboy (:
subwayed and arcade fun at tampines
before walks around clarke quay
friday late night was with ness&sherri and friends
Home was not bad, considering i stone when i'm there most of the time
saturday was Half-life at ken's :D
plus study and floorball goalkeeping after dinner!
fun but body's aching now :/
PRELIMS IN 3 WEEKS! oh oh...

2007-07-09T23:45:00.001-07:00

this is how my 18th went:

in the morning, had a pleasant surprise from june, ness & mary! with the collage and of course, bottled ribena with prawn crackers. :D
got 2 lovely flowers from becky & amirah in the hall. breaktime was a PRETY F cake (baked by amirah!!! :D) and presentation of my present- a death cab tee :D
THANK YOU GIRLS! :D
YOU ALL HAVE BEEN WONDERFUL!
& yes, haha special thanks to mary who helped me carry the collage most of the time!

FAWQ with Kenny & Jiam was incredible
although their surprises are always flawed, they still do make me very very glad! :D :D
alicia was my distraction at home watching tyra :/
& the rest were below my block!
haha putting up the HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY below :D
i swear that's the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me! (not including kenny's)
you people make me a very very happy girl this 9th July (((:
i had the long french bread as a cake
a bogus QUEEN sized underwear as a gift (specially desgined by the art weilin who curtsied for credits)
a piece of paper wrapped in tonnes of newspaper
and a hidden cat necklace at the end of the night when everyone's home
:D
yes, thank you all with all my heart.
I LOVE ALL OF YOU! <3 <3 <3!
& not forgetting the many wishes through technology
I HAD A FANTASTIC 18th, thanks to each & everyone of you. (:

2007-07-04T07:44:00.000-07:00

felicia teo wei lin missing since Saturday 30/06/07 0100 hours
on the right, the one in green
last seen in that attire

now i know what i really want to for this year my 18th birthday
i want felicia teo back safe and sound
i want my friends to be safe always
this disappearance is creeping in
fel teo, please come back soon.

2007-06-26T08:47:00.000-07:00

can't stop now don't you know
i ain't never gonna let you go
don't go
don't go

today is a happy tuesday
I HAVE THE CUTEST BOYFRIEND ON THIS PLANET EARTH!
hahahahaha
this morning, kennyboy waits under my block for more than an hour
just to send me to school!
:D :D :D
with bonuses of paprika ham & cheese sandwich
and yakult and and and TAO KAE NOI!
so sweet so sweet so sweet of you ((((:
today i'm the happiest girl on this planet earth

monday subwayed with the girls :D
painful monday though, body was just not functioning at its best
and school still sucks at usual
GRAHH much work needs urgent completion!

2007-06-21T06:27:00.001-07:00

you have stolen my heart

i miss india ):
great trip i say, many different experiences and all
so yes, back to reality
I AM DEAD MEAT
academic wise
stress is heating up
ohwell
one thing to look forward to in term 3
MY BIRTHDAY :D
i never really looked forward to birthdays but as i grow older i get more excited like a kid about birthdays
hmm...
OKAY I LOVE INDIA AND I WANT TO GO BACK TO INDIA ONE DAY!

2007-06-09T23:09:00.000-07:00

you're too busy to love anyway,
friends are still the ones to lean on.

okay getting ready for india
rock the sub was alright lah
substation's aircon was like NOT WORKING OR IS THE WORST AIRCON IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD
so yah, but i enjoyed west grand & plainsunset's sets
anyhow aa4 outing was...um alright i guess.
actually wanted to dedicate this entry to somebody
but i changed my mind, it's all not worth it.
okay everyone pray for me, i'm going to have to live with
forever-quarrelsome parents without my brother
and erratic climate changes for the next 10 days
missing people in singapore, and lagging behind on ALOT ALOT of work/revision. (june! i still can't believe you're like more than half done of all the homework!!!)
pray for me alright, let me survive through all these (:
india, india, india.......

2007-06-05T10:01:00.001-07:00

Act like kids in love when the sun goes down

crazy sunday & monday
So, here goes.
I willingly allowed my inner groupie me to surface, & even let my groupie hormones rage way way high.
Copeland & Anberlin's acoustic @ Home was fantabulous (:
Bumped into my 2 favourites of Copeland at a Mcdonalds, and there, I had my 3 consecutive days of Copeland dosage. The 3rd one being a bonus.
Feel free to laugh at me, I don't mind.
I even got Aaron Marsh & my FAVOURITEST goofy Copeland guitarist to autograph my boxers, all in the name of fun.
Pretty sure I'm never going to do it again.

2007-05-25T03:01:00.000-07:00

mary's eighteenth april 25th 2007

give me indie or give me rash

THE JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!
overslept on the last day of term II
& priceless is a good show (:
oh i'm extremely pysched pyshced pysched to go india!
and please please, i hope the weather there will be as kind as it can be

2007-05-16T06:35:00.000-07:00

more than three hundred and sixty five

last last weekend was princess yaya's 18th at vivo & siloso
much fun as usual, and what a lucky girl qian!
& the previous weekend was home stuff, mother's day and 365!
yeay & june 3rd will be copeland/anberlin with kennyboy
i feel so unhappening... :(

2007-05-02T22:38:00.000-07:00

the lovecats

hello i'm sick, fever & vomit :/
anyhow, i'm so totally looking forward to may 5th!
this weekend
i'm packed with things to do & i have 3 tests next week! :/
ah well
i really think i should start mugging but no, i just can't seem to :(
so anyway, i may be going to india this june!
how exciting! i'm really looking forward to it :D
india! whee!

does he love you?

2007-05-01T03:05:00.000-07:00

don't wake me, i plan on sleeping in

this is how my week 6 (& part of early week 7) went:

monday-secret shopping for mary's birthday blouse & making her card
tuesday-weekly CIP at lakeside, & missing my bus stop end up having to walk home longer : (
wednesday-ac track meet was sudoku-filled moments & mcdelivery to the gate, of course mary's 18th! & daddy's 58th at queens' hotel!
thursday-EARLYDAY but home to nap (because i have no happening friends :( MARY!!!)
friday-self-declared early leave from school to go SN to indulge in ORANGEBOWL :D :D :D uncle pang! this year cheer was rather uhh...monotonous, dull show : (
ohwell YELLOW WAS GOOD though! to kenny's house for FACIAL! whee i can see black heads on the mask! :D what inexplicable joy! hur.
saturday-interact career talk at jj EARLY IN THE MORNING! >:( lime flea with alicia, prior lime flea was pastamania with mary & her two cousins (i bought a picnic basket from europe for eight bucks!) then to kenny's
sunday-another stay home day
monday-overslept, too late for school, so yep
kenny in town for movie & dinner and adri, kim, bryanwong & weichuen, long walks long bus ride home (: great monday

oh yah after watching spiderman cartoon on kids central, i want to name my future baby girl INDIARA :D

2007-04-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

i want you to know you make me happy

friday was quite a day interacting with samuel see boyao
it's just fun terrorising him :/
after school was accompanying mary to buy her birthday balloons
then to plaza sing for wild hogs with my family
quite a funny show :D
saturday was cynthia's small surprise of popping up with a card & cheesecake
then breast cancer foundation funfair with my mom
next to joel's birthday dinner at hyatt
yeay CS after that (alone though)
but much fun SECOND TOP FRAGGER! :D
great saturday, horrible sunday
got the annoying sunday headaches as usual & displaying the sunday bumming around the house like a useless prick syndrome
haha school honestly can kill, ohwell :/

2007-04-19T08:43:00.000-07:00

with a love like that, you know you should be glad

with a love like this, i know i should be glad <3

anyhow happy thursday with my thursday buddy alicia!
happy chit chatting as usual & barely completing the homework
but it's so fun still!
& one sad thing is, i am going to be broke for like the next one month
anybody wants to kindly donate to the save-the-felly funds?
well, just kidding anyway
(:

why do birthdays have to come in a string?!

2007-04-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

dance with me pretty boy tonight,
dance with me and we'll be alright (:

hello tuesday
my shoulders ache real badly ): from the ambitious act of carrying hurdles!
today
cross nationals at turf then simply bread again
I DO NOT LIKE BREAD but ohwell
i feel perpetually confused & disturbed
and it's getting on my nerves :/

2007-04-12T05:55:00.000-07:00

see, there's his heartbeat.

you're amazingly sharp in sensing my feelings, i must say
it's just unbelievable
thanks for today (:
i love you alicia.

& weilin, your happy thing
haha i miss those little adrenaline rushes (;

so it's been a CCA-less week! :D
hooray for that
with wednesday haato with AA4 girls
JENGA! WE ALL LIVE DANGEROUSLY! ;)
of course, taboo, our all-time favourite game
scrabble: NESS & I WON! 89 points, don't pray pray okay!
i like haato's ice cream too, but thought the food wasn't really worth the value of moolah
aye a pity i'll most be missing lau pa sat tmr, but i'll try to make it still!
HAHA ALICIA PICNIC SOON, WITH YOU ALONG THIS TIME!
<3 all my friends!

2007-04-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

cause i love you boy

school is draggy & boring ):
i loathe vectors!
plus tmr there's LAKESIDE!
it's going to be so exhausting, as usual for tuesdays
ah well

i let myself break too many times
love wasn't meant to be this hard.

2007-04-08T02:25:00.000-07:00

where were you when i needed you?
almost never there.

hello all, i love long weekends!
thursday was two hours catching up with natasha
& dinner at holland v
haagen daz with kenny & his friends
good friday, alicia's dance heats at cine with fawq plus jiam
saturday was picnic at botanic gardens!
:D yeay it was a wet picnic but much fun anyhow
& i was the old maid for the day :/
then to alicia's finals stomp the floor
bahh i don't know how to do vectors! ):
& i'm getting the usual headache/nauseous feeling when i stay home
school's back and extremely draggy

2007-04-03T07:16:00.000-07:00

eighteen seconds before sunrise

my legs are aching from yesterday pe :(
monday chapel was looonng
pe was tiring
haha i'm so gonna fail napfa lah
played taboo during the long break!
haha so fun! :D
anyway Mercy is not an angel ):
ayee tuesday chapel was DAMN LONG LAH!
one hour of pastor talking!!!
didn't feel too well so i took pink slip!
first pink slip! haha
went dover clinic, i like the doctor!
then dover market chicken rice, IS VERY GOOD!
napped for FIVE HOURS! :D
thts abt it, must plan my long long weekend ahead.
feel like i've got tonnes to do but i don't knw what are they ):

2007-04-01T06:38:00.000-07:00

you're my best friend, and i love you
and i love you, yes i do.

vivo shopping with little miss trouble on saturday
that girl was late for more than 40 mins!
but it's okay haha
i was later than that before :/
sunday chicken rice at far east :D
with kennyboy, adri & emmanuel
pasar malam at sengkang
& home sweet home
i've got plenty to do, but i've no idea what they are
I LOATHE THIS FEELING!!!
oh friday mr bean's holiday!
it's funny! i mean, it's mr bean!
hahaha
it's time to ask natasha out! (: (: (:

2007-03-29T06:33:00.000-07:00

and i think ridiculous is an understatement

haha okay i'm on a mission to help find liteng's lost card! ): such a pity, i'll go check i hope they have more than one of the same copy! : (
i got TEN commentaries to write!
but i'm so lazyy....
ohwell.

2007-03-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

whoops, we did it again.

haha we=mary & I
again=skipping sch cos we detest having to do DC cos we are just a wee bit late
ah well...

i think life's awfully boring lately
& i don't have the enthusiasm to do anything anymore
ah well, i want holidays! ):

2007-03-27T07:42:00.000-07:00

why do you have to be so cute,
it's impossible to ignore you.
must you make me laugh so much?
it's bad enough we get along so well

i'm down with a mild fever
but i'm pretty sure i'm strong enough for sch tmr
aye i dread school now
& the weather is killing me ):
i need a life.

2007-03-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

they will see us waving from such great heights

haha, my face looks outrageously big here but ohwell, just for everyone, sacrifice my face abit.
HA HA
boring week ahead ):
oh i'll show all my superman bed in the next entry! :D
i sleep with superman every night,
okay wait, i mean every now&then.
(:

come down now, but we'll stay

2007-03-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

had a great saturday!
boring sunday though, although i took like 200 or so songs from my bro's laptop :D
yeay new songs for my walkman!
anyhow saturday
out with kennyboy, adri, kim, emmanuel, lene(sp?) & weineng!
gas haus flea, i got a skirt for eight bucks
to sungei rd, kenny got another polaroid
lucky boy (:
then to haji lane to uhh
play games like "one fat frog jump into the water, dumb!"
bet small big with mahjong cards :/
off to vivo food republic with kenny to eat ah khong fishballs!
it was really nice at vivo, woah the wind so strong i can feel my heavy body actually blown by the wind...

anyhow i'm at the latest heroes episode!
OMG SYLAR'S GOT PETER PETRELLI!
):
i like peter petrelli!!!
& of course everybody's favourites, hiro & ando
sylar's good looking but he's such an asshole in heroes
GRAAHHH KILL SYLAR!
haha what a bimbo & long entry today
MASS PE TMR! DIE DIE DIEEEE ):
actually i can't wait to go to school to see my classmates, feels like ages since i've seen them :/
weird but true
& i really do feel damn free after terms :/

2007-03-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

i wish we wld indulge in long phone calls
i wish we always had late night msn conversations
but the sad truth is,
wishes are things that never come true

hello i had the most horribly boring day of my life
guess skipping sch wasn't so great an idea after all
& thanks to those few who kept me company online in the wee a.m. hours of saturday
i badly need my friends to date me!

2007-03-15T23:26:00.000-07:00

little things don't matter to you anymore
they won't matter to me eventually too

ayee miss clar&nat! ):
bahh i've got a headache and ive not really started on terms!
ohwell
i forgot what i wanted to blog about
:/

2007-03-14T09:26:00.000-07:00

so then we'll say our goodbyes sooner than we expected,
& look back and say, we saw it coming

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH SAMNEO! :D

just when i needed some perks to rejuvenate my life
POG came to my rescue!
yeay POG dinner tmr (:
i'm sure it'll perk me up

2007-03-10T20:08:00.000-08:00

where did you go, i miss you so.

aye watched 300 yesterday
haha i quite like the show, the graphics visuals & all
and i just cooked french fries :D
haha sunday mornings are always like that
ms fazi wedding & flea market yesterday too!
better get started cramming my work
all the best for terms all!

i really wish i cld make you happy,
& i'm still wishing.

2007-03-08T05:37:00.000-08:00

yeay!
i got alot of tasks to complete this short march bloody holidays
& i'm going to malacca i think for two days
& i still need to cram for terms!
I WANT TO BE HIRO TOO!
if only i cld turn back time

2007-03-07T05:12:00.000-08:00

maybe you were never really there

aaa
happy thursday tmr! whee :D
yeay for june's encouragement cards for each & every one of us
i got a bear clip ! (:
but i like amirah's best!
MOOOOOO!
haha asshole daidee with class guys
it's during CNY/post-CNY period when my hands itches for poker cards
quite fun at least i was only asshole for once, i think.
whoops! haven't found a thursday date! ):
study date study study yes study study!
i want to be one of those walking on stage next year!
& so i'm already a half-nerd (:

2007-03-06T06:10:00.000-08:00

i said let's all meet up in the year 2000, won't it be strange when we're all fully grown
terms in two weeks!
i do believe i have one of the most mundane life in this universe
oh drag, help me!

2007-02-04T05:23:00.000-08:00

cause there's beauty in breakdown

2007-01-18T04:48:00.000-08:00

i'm trying to grasp concepts of your dimensions
while my universe is laced around your wrist
i am the bracelet you sport
i am everything that you have ever missed, and more

fawq is dearly missed! so miss the times in school ): & seeing them everyday
be safe all you girls! <3

school is simply draining me out, i've never felt this tired before, despite not doing much. and i think i'm going to put my electone on hold ): ah well. year two, will you please be kind to me for the rest of the year? your kindness will be deeply appreciated. i'm alrdy like a lifeless zombie dragging my feet around in school.

2007-01-07T04:35:00.000-08:00

things change, and they won't be the same again

so silly thinking those awful days were over
my how was i wrong
unfeeling & cold moments are such a norm now

wah sick for a couple of days alrdy!
high fever 38.8! oh plus a swollen tonsil with white patches (ie pus) on it
eewww :/
i've got MC for monday but i'll be going school, just using it to skip PE :D
wheee
i have no clue why i just won't skip school!

2007-01-01T23:37:00.000-08:00

but it's better if you do

i'll stop my calls,
you never seem bothered at all
just in case it gets too incessant,
i don't think we will last.

happy ending is not my call.

2006-12-27T08:13:00.000-08:00

and times like these
are what holds me to the ground

bbq at qian&jiam's chalet
haha hello you two HAPPY ONE YEAR! :D
staying over was a very wise choice of mine
had a ginormous ball of fun with the lovely people!
& this reminds me of how much i miss them and love them, inexorably.
playing bridge daidee bluff
& plain talking till one by one we drift into lala land
haha i just love fawq to bits and pieces!

2006-12-24T21:54:00.000-08:00

merry christmas everybody anybody!

okay haven't got the camera with me so no pictures to go with
anyhow i've stopped working :D
and i have not touched my homework!
2007 sure isn't going to be a good beginning for school for me
23rd saturday Great 'OU' times, mom's red cross christmas function
a pretty enjoyable party
then hang the deejay at home club
24th sunday CHRISTMAS EVE!
great christmas lunch at home with mom & bro
then curse of the golden flower with chongchong
and clarke quay for italian ice cream
back to sengkang for cup noodles
great way to spend the first few hours of christmas
(:

2006-12-16T09:00:00.000-08:00

you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me

when Death is somewhere near you,
you start to feel something
so I fall into a lugubrious mood
with my blitheful ignorance washed away
& a chain of What Ifs... comes flooding to mind
then, what would i do?
so you realise how ephemeral lLife is
this momentary process,
transient yet beautiful
nope, definitely not impeccable at all
but yes, it is indeed lovely
so, this is Life.

2006-12-09T07:19:00.000-08:00

okay lately my days have been flying by
BECAUSE i've been working my holidays away ):
yeah socially no-life, or at least hardly!
so i've decided to stop work by 23rd
which also tantamounts to $220! loss in monetary sense, but 9 days full of time
which isn't much cos i'll be playing away (it's christmas and NYE)
aye aye, but this holidays been good, caught up with many many lovely people! :D
cheers people!
oh & i haven't touched my work yet :/

2006-11-28T04:31:00.000-08:00

drown together & immortalise you & me

i've been swimming in a sea of undecipherable feelings lately
and really, i can't tell what i'm feeling anymore :/
i think it's not a good thing
maybe it's just the holidays

hello & thank you for taking care of me last night <3

2006-11-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

hello ness, i hope you're good this holidays ((:
keep safe, will you?

2006-11-23T06:35:00.000-08:00

yet another heartbreak,

settlers with nat clar weilin cinli! :D
great fun,
one more time? (:
and FINALLY FINALLY
meeting mel ann!
TWOOO YEEAARRSS it has been
still the same, as great as ever
catching up, is probably the best for this holidays (:

2006-11-18T07:58:00.000-08:00

panic, at the stage!

ahh, performance tmr
just hope hope hope i won't screw it up
hustle bustle
i need to shine tomorrow!

good luck, to me.

2006-11-16T08:08:00.000-08:00

are you brave enough to leave with me tonight?

yes yes exact sentiments june!
hello ness, junesy, mari, sandy, alice, becky & amirah!
ice skating? yes no yes?
or just lounging around?
anything, anything at all (:

so much to do, so little time :(
i feel like shopping :/

& suddenly, i feel like dancing.

2006-11-12T10:56:00.000-08:00

the past week
collage making, best friend's 17th, biennale with the lovelies, onebuck oysters, 2Gclique gathering, soundcheck.

pretty good.

where has everybody gone to? :/

2006-11-04T00:32:00.000-08:00

life is full of ephemeral situations
so are friendships
good times come and gone
even if we do not speak for days and weeks
they are still best friends to me
and i hope they treat me that way too
that is one palatable thought of the day

many times, we ran out of things to talk
too many times it has been

2006-11-03T07:53:00.000-08:00

happy halloween!
my first halloween (:
was fun :D
messed up kid that night, not exactly a bit glamorous at all.
hello, i love the 8 girls!
did i mention, marilyn was the sexaye SEXAYE pirate! i know you'll read this, but mari, i really do honestly think you're hot stuff and pretty yo!
psst, don't tell kenny ;)

once lost cannot be found.

2006-10-29T08:20:00.000-08:00

holidays are here
it's time to play
halloween! people happy halloween!
alright a busy week ahead, till the OP ends.
over PW over!
but i think i'd be really very free after OP ends haha
happy holidays!
no more 615am(or rather 630)trains with mari for 2 months?!
but i'll miss my sengkang friend!
and ac girls and of course everybody else
this holidays, it's time to catch up. ((:
i'm feeling good, so i love you all everyone everybody anybody! :D

2006-10-21T09:05:00.000-07:00

i love the way the galaxy starts to melt
when we become one

i'll be mournful no more!
thanks ness for your uber-duber-super sweet email! ((((:
simply made my day/night :D
anyhow promos over
did average but i'm really really glad i'm able to promote
so now I&R and OP to go
and we're done, finally done
for PW!
caught the prestige today with mom and bro
not bad

anyway was looking through my neoprints today
oh my, i miss chua wei lin so much!
and of course ng qian ya & alicia chua!
did i mention, the trip to candy empire with qianya quite a while back was pretty great, catching up and all! (:
i love my ac and sn friends alot! :D

2006-10-19T08:44:00.000-07:00

At the end of the day
I think back
And i feel awfully neglected.

:(

i realised i'm not as happy as before
anymore.

2006-10-15T07:34:00.000-07:00

can we climb this mountain?
i don't know
higher now than ever before
i know we can make it if we take it slow
that's taking easy
easy now, watch it go

uncomfortable you say
ever spared a thought for me?
i feel uncomfortable every single day
you know its tough for me
but i don't think you know HOW HARD it actually is

2006-10-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

stay, if you wanna love me, stay
it's Indie Rock N Roll for me
it's All I Need

my blitheful facade
is peeling now
layer by layer
this time,
i'm considering it for real
maybe it's really time to let go
this short term romance
is it meant for us?

2006-09-24T06:10:00.000-07:00

just you and i in the sweet unknown
we can just call each other our home

promos in five days!
actually i'm quite excited,
for it to be over!
yes yes the joy!
haha conquer the promos, everyone will! (:

2006-09-21T02:48:00.000-07:00

once again, you chose them over me.

am i that bad at dropping subtleties?
i don't quite think so.
life hasn't been exactly kind,
but i'm staying strong
for myself.

2006-09-17T03:02:00.000-07:00

look into your heart and you'll find love love love

hello
when exams come
i feel stressed
then i do housework
and pack my room
ITS A TREND I REALISE! :/
well i conquered maclaurin TYS today and that damned EOM
finally finally
& yesterday's talk was simply awesome (:

2006-09-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

she complains the room's too cold

i've lost something,
and i'm finding it hard to get it back now.

promos!
15 days
and i'm really scared this time
just so scared out of my wits.
but i can't seem to focus!
wtf is wrong with me?!

2006-09-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?

2006-09-01T22:03:00.000-07:00

i was hoping i could tell you this with two feet on the ground
but i don't think i can talk,
because i'm not very stable right now

we are spiralling
down deep down

the spill canvas makes me happy whenever i feel the lowest of the lowest

2006-09-01T08:48:00.001-07:00

pain, pain, go away! ):

met up with fawq today! :D
goodness me, it felt so good to talk to them!
<3
thanks for the thumbsucker, i love you

i give up, i can't play hero anymore.

2006-08-31T20:53:00.000-07:00

i feel...empty.

haha mickey mouse jacket-courtesy of jielun's

its really funny how technology has become the crutches of people's lives
not to mention mine too
life's ever-changing isn't it

so did i mention?
I FEEL STRESSED?!
over promos homework and practically everything else!
and PW of course
why can't PW just drop dead and die! >:(

2006-08-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

we can be heroes just for today

i am flawed
but definitely not a fan of God

teacher's day is coming!
HELLO FAWQ, WITH PINAFORES BACK TO SN?
okay not as if you guys see this, but i'm calling you guys to go back!
wait for my bugging messages love :D

2006-08-26T10:00:00.000-07:00

people don't talk anymore
or is it just me?

2006-08-25T09:36:00.000-07:00

oh crashing time can't hide a guilty girl
with jealous hearts that start with blossom curls
i took my baby's breath beneath the chandelier
of stars in atmosphere

die PW die!
HATE PW I REALLY DOOOO!
>:(
and homework!
next week is the last week of term 3!
PROMOS PROMOS PROMOS!
AHHHHHHHH ):
an unending list of things to complete
bahh!

2006-08-24T06:23:00.000-07:00

and finally
done with GP/chemistry/economics CAs this week :D
what a huge huge humongous relief!
and i studied for all! well at least i believed i tried my best.
okay so now i'll peacefully let the bren bren madness take me over!
gladly do so
ultimate dorkish cuteness!
why, AC days isn't such a bore anymore!
wait, let me correct that.
AC days hasn't been a bore at all!
not with lovely/amusing/delightful/entertaining classmates like mine
but somehow i feel disoriented now
ah, i cldn't care less
the weekends is finally approaching
((:

2006-08-19T08:36:00.000-07:00

and after everything, i still feel the same

happy people stay together!

2006-08-16T07:11:00.000-07:00

finally, there is clarity

hello i happen to find a part of my msn conversation with jeremy lua particularly funny
jeremy* the art of skipping school says:
"t,cher! i have to go home and rest, my balls hurt!"
jeremy* the art of skipping school says:
"why?"
"yesterday watch too much porn la, madam"
or the second one, not so funny though
jeremy* the art of skipping school says:
" madam, i have to take an early leave because it's of utmost importance that i do so right now. I've got this rare medical condition that will cause me to disintegrate into ziggy golden stardust if i hear another from my schoolmate or any of you tutors!"

i guess it explains right, the art of skipping school

2006-08-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

i'm still holding on
people say we'll last
now i'm unsure of what i once used to be so damn sure of
the inexplicable hurt and pain
i'm now paying for the crimes i've done

i miss bandits! ): haha
favourite people
and i feel much better today
maybe not
hello, i need to get back my study momentum!
grr >:( i just lost it JUST LIKE THT!
life's been kind enough
so i guess i'll take a strike

oh my dearest bro has got a lip piercing now!
a pity i cldnt get to watch the piercing in process! ): when i was the only privileged one according to my brother

2006-08-13T07:17:00.000-07:00

so we didn't meet again
):
i'm just feeling sad
and i can't seem to stop the tears from flowing
its okay, i'll be brave
i'll stand tall and strong
i'll be okay i'll be alright

sometimes i wonder, who am i trying to kid?

2006-08-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling better now
hilbert is so cute!
he makes me happy :D

oh let me talk about this funny dream i had a few days back
main character in my dream : ALOYSIUS!
hahaha kill me, why did i even dream of him?
but the contents of the dream is hilarious
if i'm not wrong i bumped into aloy in a food court
and he just bought a big bowl of soup
and i ate all his mushrooms in his soup :/
whoops
and i just told him about my dream
and he said out of everything you had to eat my favourite, mushrooms
dreams are really funny

you see, i want to tell you how i drank so much fruit tree mango juice
how i accidentally bit my lip while eating
all the minor things in life
everytime i see you
i want to whisper those precious words into your ears
but you don't know
how hard it is for me to squeeze them out
so i keep these words behind my teeth
i keep all of them in
and i wonder why you don't do some certain things
but i guess i really can't hate you for the things that you didn't do
i really want to do you this favour,
but i don't know how to start, what to do
so you'll be disappointed in me, yet again
):

2006-08-12T08:55:00.000-07:00

all i know today is the day
i really want to hate you
i really do
but i can't
and i won't
i'll cry myself to sleep tonight

2006-08-11T22:34:00.000-07:00

you make me quiver and shake
but i bite my lips hard and take deep breaths
to keep my tears from flowing
won't you hold me now?

2006-08-09T05:32:00.000-07:00

lit girls of AA4 :D

everytime i'm with you
i feel so ambivalent
so happy yet so sad
so damn stoked to be with you
but the emotions that come with it
is torturing me twisted inside
so i play pretend
and sink into self-denial
you ask what's wrong
i say nothing
my tone, my voice
its all a lie
who do i think i'm kidding
but i've given up
given up totally
on controlling my emotions
so i'll just sit here
and insist everything's alright and okay
i know i'm being selfish
but i'm not telling
not anymore

your best friends your classmates
i feel so damn small

anyhow, happy national day!
i felt really happy singing national day songs somehow
its funny, i tell you
watching my dad watching telly without sound
what kind of kick can he get from that!
haha and i tell you
SAMNEO HAS A CUTE DRUMMER COUSIN IN A CUTE HONGKONG BAND
WITH A SUPER CUTE VOCALIST
OMG HOT
STOKED! :D

2006-08-07T05:42:00.000-07:00

saturday night (:

ho, AA4 bbq at june's!
pretty much okay
good bbq food
haha thanks june for hosting :D
then to garden hotel
ryan's eighteenth birthday bash!
howhowhow glad i was to meet everyone again!
:D i still miss P21 as much as ever ):
esp shippy christine gary porkeh derrel BIRTHDAYBOY of course
and of course the rest too, whom i, pardon me, am too tired to recall
aww miss everyone so badly ):
anyhows ADAM'S APPLES is a really good film
everyone should catch it!!!
oh i forgot, RAPTURE was fantastic too!
glad to catch natasha clarissachin samneo and etc!
woahwhee exciting weekend i had (:

mr lomo number 2 is on the way! i think ((:
oohh oohh lomo oh so sexaye :D

2006-08-03T07:18:00.000-07:00

FIRST OF ALL, HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEENTH MY DEAREST JUNQI! :D

next, you knw i really don't wish to do this
but i feel EXTREMELY compelled by anger to do so
and sorry its not proper and nice of the things i am about to type

FUCK FUCK FUCK!
WAH CAN JUST DIE LAH
MY BLOODY MOTHER WENT TO FUCKING SWITCH MY COMPUTER OFF
TIME AFTER TIME
SWITCH IT OFF!
>:(!
THE THING THAT ANGERS ME
IS I WAS HAVING A FILE TRANSFER
WHICH HAS BEEN TRANSFERRING FOR 2 BLOODY LONG PLUS HOURS
AND IT WAS ALMOST GOING TO BE COMPLETED
AND SHE FUCKING WENT TO SWITCH THE COMPUTER OFF
AFTER I FUCKING REMINDED HER NOT TO SWITCH IT OFF
FOR TODAY, I TELL YOU
I REALLY HATE/DETEST/LOATHE MY MOTHER
SERIOUSLY, SHE SHOULD JUST GET A LAPPY ON HER OWN
FUCKING EMAILING SOME US FRIEND
WAH FUCK LAH
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!

my apology if its too angsty, but im really am damn FUCKED UP by what my mother did
and sorry i only know the obscenity fuck

2006-08-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

let me love you tonight

holy, i need to add that the previous post does include people not in the photos too, cos unfortunately and sadly i do not have photos of the REST. yes (:

anyhows POP06 was pretty well just a trip back to SN
:D silly jumpshots at the track and PE toilet
mm how these tiny little things we do bring so much joy
so yes, nice orangebowl from our favourite uncle PANG and his armani hairstyle

anyhow sad thing to note: one demerit point and detention class for next week ):
who is to blame?

2006-08-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

and this is what i go to school for

2006-07-31T05:43:00.000-07:00

I'll be true, i'll be useful, i'll be cavalier
I'll be yours my dear
And i belong to you
If you just let me through

as the soaring jealousy rages deep inside of me
my grinding teeth starts to sore
but i'll stay by your side
i swear i won't go anywhere
but curb this fateful addiction of mine
by tonight

oh did i mention?
this is probably damn outdated
but baybeats was fun with andrew and especially NESS!
((: i have lovely classmates i swear.

2006-07-23T05:57:00.000-07:00

And i can't deny the jealousy that i'm feeling deep inside
I need to type and vent the indescribable emotion i'm feeling now
I just loathe this feeling
):
Thus i'm sad tonight, somehow.

2006-07-22T22:58:00.000-07:00

jamison parker <3
anyhow
interact installation was...loss for words
short and sweet?
mari and i met ness at BV
hello ness, i hope you're okay
((:
i can't do much but just listen to your rants and try to make your day
lime flea market i bought a dress! :D
to dream on @ DXO
don't want to talk about it
many great bands but the crowd was a zombie!
>: (
and plainsunset, you guys rock, as usual :D
so basically thts my saturday
oh did i mention, the bouncer was rather sceptical about me and ness NOT being eighteen
hahaha my my have i grown
he was a friendly bouncer by the way (:
anyhow overall its been a rather busy hectic interesting lovely week

things to do: service coloursplash flash
a trip to thieves market, HOPEFULLY WITH SAM! (:
get a polaroid cam, prefably cheap and second hand
get a coloursplash holga(or action sampler flash)
etc..can't recall any for now.
SO MANY THINGS TO DOOOO! AHHHH >:(
busy busy ):